Learning Together

I wasn't even sure I was going to go ahead and write this post. Last week I was feeling down and just in a really depressed kinda of mood for no apparent reason. I spent a lot of time on Pinterst just browsing what came up in my page. Some of what came up was somewhat of an encouragement because in reading some of the posts I learned a lot about myself. I said I wasn't sure I was going to write this because now that I am feeling better what I learned just seems more like an excuse. It isn't an excuse though it is who I am and still in a learning process of how to deal with my emotions and learning who I am.

so what came on Pinterest? Well last year my son had a teacher that realized just how smart he was but because of a lack of fine motor development he couldn't always express that and it was frustrating for him and teachers trying to read his work. She made sure he got the help he needs and he is now working with an amazing team of occupational therapists and physical therapists at his school. After observing my son these therapist said he has Sensory Processing Disorder. Some things they said about this made sense to describe many of of our son's behaviors. So I begin researching Sensory Processing Disorder and pinning activities to do with kids to help. In reading some of those posts so many of my own struggles both as a kid and now as an adult began to make since it made me so grateful that my son has the opportunity to work with specialist that can help him. When researching Sensory Processing Disorder a lot autism as well Asperger's information comes up as well and you find just how in depth and different levels of severity these can take on. One thing though is for sure if you have any of these three things you feel and sense everything with such deep feeling that is hard to express it and seems as though it so often comes out just as a scream or tendency withdrawal for lack of words on how to express what is so deeply felt. After researching these I am starting to understand more about my son and myself. I am so grateful for the therapists helping my son but he needs my help too and this has been a struggle as I feel I don't know how to deal with my own emotions how can I teach a seven year old how to deal with his?

I don't know which of these I have but I am certain I have some for form of a Sensory Disorder. Many of my struggles as a kid have become so real again after reading about these Disorders (don't really like to call them that). Autism, Asperger's, and sensory processing disorder were not things we ever heard of as kids. That doesn't mean they weren't around we are more aware of these things now and are able to help kids that have one or all of them. For that I am so grateful so while It is a struggle everyday to sort through my own strong feelings let alone help kids sort out theirs. Together my son that has been diagnosed as well as my other son and I learning how to deal with emotions. Sometimes I fail and they are reminding me that was not appropriate behavior or not nice. Everyday can be struggle when you feel, see, hear, and smell with such severity that it becomes overwhelming but I am glad to have such amazing kids and partner to help with this and learn with me.

Here is a a couple of Pinterest pins that spoke to me:



I don't know that this is necessary just a female thing I don't like to generalize But yes these "coping Mechanisms are exhausting. Pin by http://aspie-os.tumblr.com/post/159409398404



Yes, I was the quite observer trying to figure out how to best "fit in" and go unnoticed always the chameleon. So now looking for who I am. Pin by https://twitter.com/ZebraW2015/status/1020527352697303040

I am lucky to have an amazing spouse and other family to support me on this journey. We are all beautiful and imperfectly perfect. We all having amazing gifts to share. Be You!



This is me no more hiding or "masking" behind the sunglasses